It was cold outside while I was sipping a hot latte at a coffee shop near the hills, my mind went popping thoughts over thoughts. This time the subject was a bit unusual inside my head. Well, some things in life are very complicated just as Love, Promises or even Commitments. The question is who or what do you make them with? In my experience, I have not quite understood what these actually mean or portray in our systems. I have not been doing very well with such terms in my life. Maybe I understand and do just fine but might not recognize them very well. People ask me have I ever been in Love and I still have not figured out on how to answer it rightly. Seriously, is there even a way to define it straight away? Well, I always ask what love is inaccurate terms.
Possibly it is being attached to someone or something emotionally. But again, then what is an attachment and how does it happen and when exactly? Is it an alarm or a ring bell in your mind that goes running when you unconsciously cross that line of getting attached to some particulars? I think it about cares as well, the time when you start caring too much in a certain way. But then it also varies from person to person, everyone got their own way of showing care. I suppose it is an effort within and at times you don’t even know how it works because it just works on its own in a natural way.
Perhaps it starts from self. Just as I said it begins from within then that makes it straight that first, you got to fall in love with yourself and then you figure out a way to express it for the outside world too, let say people around you, pets in your circle and things that you own maybe from way back. Self-pampering is a way to express love just about yourself and it is good. Here it makes sense to me because that I am good at it, Self-care. Does that sound selfish? No, I think it is more sensible because for heaven sake it just makes straight sense!
See, here is a thing, love is not easy to get into your head. But I guess promises and commitments still find a way to be understood, it is just about sticking by to something or some people. And yeah these terms are pretty much relevant… at least it sounds like a connection. Now I got it! Love is critical but it is supported by promises and commitments… at least this way it sounds sane. That was about my mental math for the other night, the only thing different was that this time it had the string attached with my heart looking for answers.