A totally lost, all broke, stressed out person with having serious health issues due to anxiety is the perfect example to start here. I was this girl, who felt like giving up when my father left us. Thought of future fears me much and he was not there to pick me up, nor physically neither emotionally.
That was just the start of my toughest phase. It was then when someone said me “hey girl! You are meant for so much more than destroying yourself by these suicidal thoughts”. That faith. Is not that pretty? That faith is the only reason of my existence today. It helps me restart my life.
I asked myself the purpose of my life and for the first time I realized that goals are important. They are the reason to move ahead and to stay in the game of life. Begin to think with a purpose is the first thing I did. Out of so many “cant share here” goals, there was one that I can share and that is not quitting at all. It was the toughest thing I had to do but that’s the most needed thing. “As dark as its going to be, keep going naureen” is all I say to myself during those nights. I started working on self development than self destruction from then. I wanted my life to mean something that when I will look back, I will say yeah I made some tough decision but they are worth it. If I don’t like where I was, it was the only time to work hard, for it was all on me. I was the one who had to take responsibility to make it happen. I decided to make my weakness as my strength; I know no one can beat me, if I don’t give up. It’s was the time to rise. It was the time I decided that I shall rise again. Rise up to my own potential.
After facing much and surviving with all the atrocities thrown on me, my purpose of life is to pick the people who are feeling knocked down, to share this new perspective of life that I have learned, which is that you should have to take out a way from your difficulties. I know its sound scary but listen to me now; you have to find that perfect opportunity, to take a step for yourself. Think what you going to do to make a different tomorrow for yourself. I want to inspire low moral people around me to become the strongest version of their existence, because life have so many surprises for you which may includes some hard tests. But just remember failure is necessary to achieve success. When u feel like quitting remember why you started, and stick to it. Never ever give up on yourself. Try turning your pain into your power. This will be your real progress.
I am still not at my destination yet, but I am in a constant struggle, constant progress. I think that the action of progress is progress itself, the push itself is a progress. I am much stronger and that’s totally because of you, dad. Yes, you were right that I can’t be where you left, the rest of my life. Thank you for making me sure I could be homeless anytime. Thank you for not being my support because that the reason I am here, not needing anyone. Thank you for changing my perspective of life and for letting me knows that it was in my heart to fight out, to be strong. Thank you for making me realizes that I am not a victim but a warrior. I have already survived much and now I am restless, no one can beat me now. Did you hear me now? I am unbreakable. I become the wo( man) to myself, because I did not had a man backup with me. I want you to know that I may not be the strongest but I am resilient as hell, and I will rise again soon. I will find a way soon.